Mother Nature's back

After 40 days of waiting. Yes, 40. And again it only lasted 2 days. If I'd known it would be like this I would have gone off the pill a long time ago! After spending every period for the first 5 years of my 'womanhood' doubled over in pain, throwing up and lasting 7 days this is like a vacation! Even when I was on the pill it would last 4 days. Geez, I wasted a lot of time on birth control.

I hope this doesn't mean they'll just farther apart and then gone. I'd like to think that my body is capable of ovulating and all that. I mean it is only my life's ambition to be a mother. For as long as I can remember it's the thing I've wanted to be most.

Anyway, I just keep praying and try not to let it stress me out too much. Although when I was at the grocery store the other day I checked my blood pressure in one of those sit-down-put-your-arm-in-a-cuff things. The top number was a little high, but the bottom one was below normal. Totally weird. I'm guessing it was stress. Stress can do strange things to your body.

In other news, I attended a baby shower last Friday for a friend whom I've known since we were in elementary school. So cute to see her and her little pregnant belly. Of course I won't look like that whenever I get pregnant...no I'll be one of those girls who just blows up like a balloon. Yep I can see it now. I can only hope that, like a balloon, I would deflate easily after the baby is born. :) Haha!

There are just so many signs of new life around me lately that it's just amazing to me. In a few weeks I'm going to a cousin's wedding in Nebraska. A cousin who I can remember as a toddler, standing in our living room at Christmas, hugging a big teddy bear about as big as she was. Getting married. Like my little cousin I last blogged about having a baby...this friend of mine having a baby, another friend had hers in May. Another girl I went to high school with getting married. And me celebrating a somewhat-of-a-milestone birthday in about a month. Wow...we're all so grown up. Where did the time go?

Time to head to bed now. Dream of Mother Nature coming back next month. Or not....

I'm a SuperHero

I just wanna say...this would be totally sweet!

Your Superpower Should Be Invisibility

You are stealth, complex, and creative. You never face problems head on. Instead, you rely on your craftiness to get your way. A mystery to others, you thrive on being a little misunderstood. You happily work behind the scenes... because there's nothing better than a sneak attack! Why you would be a good superhero: You're so sly, no one would notice... not even your best friends Your biggest problem as a superhero: Missing out on all of the glory that visible superheroes get

What Should Your Superpower Be?

Babies....

Yes, it is safe to say that babies are on the brain. Which is kinda weird, considering they were never much on my brain when I was taking care of them every day. Hm. Anyway, I went to my little cousin's baby shower yesterday and got to see how cute she is pregnant, and all the cool things she got for her little girl, and to hear her tell me how excited she is for me to be pregnant. What? In a complete shower of attention, she is thinking about me? I was truly flattered. :) All I wanted to tell her was how excited I was for her and I came away thinking how grown up she is all the sudden. Kinda makes me teary-eyed to think how the little cousins are all growing up.

I say little cousins because there was a time when me, my sister and our cousin M(boy) were the only ones our age for awhile. There were the oldest cousins...D, M(girl), and B. Then there was me, my sister and M(boy). And then when I was 12 it seems like my mom's younger siblings started exploding with kids. The youngest tier of cousins (the little cousins) consists of AK, KK, NR, AR, JK, CK(boy), BK, ARK, and CK(girl). We won't even get into the next generation, that is growing by the minute it seems like. Back to the point....I was a tweener when they all came along so I started babysitting them. Probably where my love of kids started.

And now the oldest little cousin is having one before I am. In a selfish way, yes I am a little sad that a cousin who is several years younger than me is starting her family before I get to start mine, but I'm also very happy for her. I think she'll be a wonderful mom. :)

I can't wait to meet you baby girl PM. :)

My karaoke side

As some of you may know, I love to sing karaoke. I was introduced to it about 4 years ago and in fact, it is how I met my husband. For some reason, around family and close friends who don't really know I can sing I get a little shy about it. But a good friend of mine, JR, showed me the awesomeness that is Myspace Karaoke. And I love it! I can sing karaoke in my own home, with no one around, as loud as I want. So I've recorded a few songs from their list and saved them in my library, afraid to let others hear me. Tonight I have decided to let the world listen. I can't figure out how to put the player on here, but here is a link to my Myspace karaoke page....


ksolo.myspace.com/actions/myWebpage.do


Hopefully this works. If you'd like, please visit my page and tell me if I'm any good, or not. Whatever. I sing because it makes me happy and it's a good way to release emotion and stress. I don't really care if I'm good enough to be the next American Idol (which I'm not, by any means), I just like singing for fun. So, please be kind. :)

Are you pondering what I'm pondering, Pinky?

I think so Brain. But if we gave peas a chance, won't the lima beans feel left out?

Anyone who knows about good cartoons, knows that is from Pinky and the Brain. One of my favorites. :) It just makes me laugh. I love to watch anything that will make me laugh.

Some days laughter seems very rare. Those, to me, are the worst days. I mean, how boring and listless would the day be if we didn't laugh? Or even smile, for that matter. I think it's important to find something in every day that makes you smile.

Today, playing with Charlie made me smile. Spending the afternoon talking with DH about nothing made me smile. And listening to him trying to cajole me into bed with him made me laugh. LOL I just can't help but love him. More every day. :)

Sometimes the seriousness of life hits me pretty hard, like a smack in the face. For instance, paying bills is a big smack. I wrote out a few thousand dollars worth of bills in the last few days, ick. But, we still came out in the black, so I must be doing something right. It's because of all this serious stuff in life that makes me realize how much I love to laugh. And very honestly, I would not be alive if I couldn't laugh at something. It's like stress relief...laughter and music. When nothing else works I either turn up the tunes or turn on Comedy Central. Works every time.

The moral of the story is this....

Are you pondering what I'm pondering, Pinky?
I think so Brain...but if they called them sad meals the kids wouldn't buy them would they?